not sour grapes.. ok fine maybe a little

i was at victoria school (VS) a few years back for a musical exchange. after that i got to know a few boys there and went back there more often for their concert. we meet up have lunch got along pretty well and became friends. today saw one of them at mindef but we didnt have the chance to talk.. went home and we were talking on msn thats when i found out he got into NUS Pharmarcy Study and plans to enter Medicine School for future study next time. another friend from VS is in Holland studying i-dunno-what-for-how-long. another one is going for Chem Engin. One friend from ACS IB got into Medicine school. back to the rest of the VS boys i know goes to Ivy Leadge (Brown, Columbia, Dartmouth, Harvard, Princeton, and Yale) in US.. this is what the edmw call elite of the elites. or eliets with many money.

have you ever wonder why isnt that me? i did when i was young.. i wish i was smarter, richer and prettier. i wish i could speak better and even write neater. until a few years back i learn to accept myself for who i am. Confession: i was willing to exchange everything (i really meant EVERYTHING) i have to lead the "ideal" life. i have thought "if only i was a bit more wealthy and my parents can afford to send me overseas, pay for all the tuition fees and let me study without worries i might be able to do better in studies." but this also means i see money as something thats impt and been lacking in my life. well who deny that having more cash in yr pocket allows u to climb up the social ladder and do better things but this also means if u take the wrong step and fall, you fall harder than anyone else.

my "elite friends" might have high expectations from yr friends and family.. blah blah...

i might have seen very successful (and likely to be even more successful in the future) friends/people. however i am satisfied with what i have now. i have everything i NEED and have some of the things that i WANT.

i guess many people was like me back then.. only thought of "what i dont have as compared to other people" and didnt compare "what i have that others dont have." i have great angelic friends and a lovely bf with a lovely family.

ok this will be all my blahh-berings for now. i dont like to talk too much to people i dont know, i like to stand-by and watch them.