I'm listening to:i like the way you move

just by this week alone, it's enough to kill me.

1)no more 06s05
2)extremely weird tutors
3)can't really find much connection with my new classmates
4)no more syf
5)my parents

1) i really really miss everyone. sometimes ( i don't know if i should say this) but i think i am avoiding some people, knowing that if i see them, i might just start crying.

2) sometimes my tutors seems to be talking to themselves, some should retire, some should just learn to speak properly without spitting saliva. i really can't understand their words. .. like crap

3) generation gap? it seems to quite hard for me to mix with some of them. well they're all nice and guai peeps but.. it's just hard for me to start the conversation. i'm the type which will just keep very quiet if i meet new people.

4) no more syf.. i don't realli' wish to explain.. it's just..so not fair

5) my parents... big headache. they didn't really bother me about my studies since P3. and.. now.. 10 years later.. they're restricting the tv i watch (CSI, Coldcase) no tv, no more out late. think i give a damn? no..sorry.. but when i need you to shout at me, you're busy looking at yr stuffs.. and now it would be good if you can leave me alone.

i have an average of 2hours break a day? spend it alone and i enjoy the peace. i'm like have friends in class so.. don't worry. but.. just find it hard to REALLY start talking.
i can't seem to move forward and take the first step.
i'm creating my own barrier
i just cry myself to sleep for the entire of this week
and i woke up with thick double eyelids
i seems to have lost my soul totally.
i have to drag myself to sch every morning.

i'm like now.. going for ming chun's bd party.. made the band fest trombonist some strawberry dipped with dark chocolates. =). some how.. the chocolate smells a bit chao tah. maybe it's dark chocolates so.. the chao tah smell is natural?