things to do after alevels

i'm listening to: first love-宇多田ヒカル
i remember i was playing 1st love trombone solo outside bandroom and enoch came to ask me some funny question on you

day1:

1) to cry... so i can feel like a human. i am going to think of all the happy things we did together.. funny webcam moments, stuffing sushi/sashimi moment and then.. cry yes. i havent been crying. it's been so.. much..drama.

2) facial. ok my male friends thinks its funny, because theres some innuendo to it

3) jap food at bpp. eat my lobster sushi.



but now i think i just did no.1. i am not as strong as i appear to.
i fucking miss you. so much. and i cant stop. it is so addictive. fuck, i am not suppose to think this way. i just realised. i really really need to cry. but not because of you, it's because of me.

the end........

i smell fire in my water bottle. i am finishing all my candles. as i read what you said. i cried again.
i hope i have a _____ in your _____ .i dont know if anyone can feel the ____ in my eyes

my frozen berries.

blue sky, white clouds, brown earth. africa. where i want to be