used to

"chemistry was crazy when it kicked of
neither one of us knew why"
It was a start that made me smile till my jaw sore, it made me feel like wanting to grab his hands and do all the silly and crazy things in this world


"sometimes i just feel like hugging you and start kissing you" he said. i felt the same way too. but his could never happen

everything's close to perfection, but one thing that's terribly wrong is the timing. one thing i'm sure is that we did went crazy over each other, but now it's over.

everytime i breath, i feel a short, sharp pain, pericing through my heart. crying quietly. i don't ask for commitment, cause i can't give them myself, all i want is to be happy with him. i guess this is all karma, for breaking a number of guy's heart.

i'm not sure what i like about him. infact, i only know that i feel secure, happy and protected with him. he said i changed his life totally, i was happy. i used to dream of us walking down orchard road, holding hands and talking non-stop but this will never happen.

that very day was really the happiest day in my life. right now, i'm feeling terrible, i need to be happy again. it's a good thing my tution teacher's sick, i need to be happy.
everything started exactly one week ago and everything ended with a goodbye kiss one week later. we are now good friends.

but i really think i would be happy if it ever started, i don't really care about the ending.

i need to be happy, i want to be happy, i must be happy but for now... not much people can make me happy and dont ask me to find a new guy. i may be a heart-breaker and player but not this time.


if you are reading this. thanks for everything.