back to who i am

listening to: last night
totally blank.. ain't really thinking straight. speechless. numb .



i swear, i swear, i swear.. back to who i am.. what my friends call me, it's better that way. i swear i'll never give in the real thing. well, as a matter of fact, i didn't really give in everything, but i intended to if it ever happen in the future. now, it will never. i knew something like this would be the ending but i didn't care, because i know clearly that all i cared was to be happy. it was the kind that i have never felt before



chris daughtry-used to

I'll suppress everything and anything. it was an infatuation that got out of hand. details don't matter. i was really silly. silly little gal who've never experience something so true. she thought she will be able to feel it real for once.



i forgot to bring my keys.. was waiting and waiting and waiting alone, from 9.30 to about 10.30. it was torturing. no company. the only company i had was darkness which i'm so fear of. after that my parents started to nag at me.. all i remembered was saying "for god's sake, stop nagging at me" before went into my room. i don't need sympathy but i need company
i made a couple of new friends, well at least they have the courage to talk and chat with me about everything under the sun, face-to-face.

when i saw the break of day, i wish that i could fly away, standing near the endless sea, catching tear drops with my hand. my heart is drench in wine.


this keeps me going my friends